Aq pkr,aq kuat, trnyta aq lmah, ,
q cb menguatkn diriku, ,trnyta yg q bthkn adlh tman. . .
Terlalu sulitkah untk menemukn mereka? ? ?
Rasany bahu ini mw roboh,
rasany trlalu brat membw bebn ni sndri. .
Ingin. . .
Ingin q membaur dgn mereka. .
Tp kelmpk i2, seolah tk bsa di maski. . .
Dan seolah q tk pntas untk mendpatkn ny.
Aq diam. .
Namun hati q menangis. . .
Dan pikran q pun brcmpur aduk. . .
Mata q ingin mentup,
tp terthan oleh rasa gundah yg menumpuk di otak ku. . .
Serasa kepala q mau meledak, ,
namun bom wktunya macet. . .
Smua energiny pun tersumbt.
Sesak. . .
Sungguh, ,hampir pecah tangis ini.
Dgn smua perbdaan, trnyta trlalu sulit untk disatukn.
Mrka hidup dgn cra mrka.
Dan aq pun hdup dgn cra q.
Hdup dlm ksdrhnaan.
Hdup dgn menerma apa adany,
menrima keadaan yg trkdang harus mengorbnkan keinginan q.
Aq coba berikan yg terbaik, tp ternyta bkn i2 yg terbaik bgi mrka.
Q coba mencri mrka yg membthkn, tp yg q tmukn adlh keengganan mrka brbgi.
Lelah. .
Hati q ingin mengadu pada-Nya.
Knapa aq sndiri? ?
Knpa tk dberi tman kpdaku disini?
Slalu, ,slalu, q ingad.
Pzt Allah tlah menyiap tman untk ku.Aq percy i2.
Tp pkrn i2 kdng hdr kmbli?
Dn stmpuk pertnyaan mengma2,,seolh ia ingin nyatkn, ini nyta...dn kw hrus lht.
Blm q tmukn, bhkn byangan ny pun tk tmpk mski smar ?
Mlah, yg tampk adlh "hnya saat d bthkn"?
Knpa?
Saat d bthkn, ,mrk mendkt, tp saat q bth,smua pergi. . .
Saat q lht mta mrka,,
aq percya, mrka adlh xg tpat untk q brbgi. . .
Tp, ,apkh trlalu sulit bgi mereka mendngarkn q?
Knpa rasany tk pnting apa yg q bicrakn. .
Aq lelah. . .
Rasa ingin perg, lari, sjauh mungkn,
menemukn sekping mozaiku. .
Menemukn brsma tman, ,stlus hti . . .
Bkn sbtas logika.
Selasa, 18 Januari 2011
Minggu, 02 Januari 2011
my confessesion......
this my confesesion tu u before i knew the truth about u..
::
I dunno why should i cried because of u so painfully? ? ?
Whereas, i ever told in my heart not to cry 4 u , cause may u never think 'bout me anymore !
I admitted, u were 1 of important person in my life, , ,even till now. . .
U've gone,
without say anything,
as i knew, u've find sum1 new.
BuT, it won't be reason i ever hate u, if u never ignore me. . .
How can't ?
After u find some1 who could understand u, who could listen to u, , who could make u never dissapointed,
who share anything u like, ,
u forget me? ?
Though, event i tell my feeling, i can't find, i can't c your atTentioN 4 me.
I realize,
may i have hurt u much,
may i always make mistakes to u,
so, i trieD to find the wordz to say to u, ,
but it's so limited.
Right now,
u,
u,
u,
never know, how difficult to me to hold back my pain to u.
U never c, the tearS in my eyes everytime i c u.
U won't realize how i miss u, miss d moment we belong 2gether.
Anything what ever happened with us can't i delete ASAP as u can do it ASAP.
Right now, u just think your love, your ambitiön, never me.
I hoped, i wished u'll say to me that i'm your bestfriend.
But never. Never. Never. Till i cry, till i die, u won't say it to me.
Last time, i addmited that i was difficult to suppose any1 as my bestfriend, 'cause bestfriend is not a game,but holy.
BuT, why,
after i openeD my heart, choose u as my bestfriend, u went away ? ?
U make our story is never there.
It's so hard for me to loose u, 'cause loose u same like loose pieces of my heart.
I can hardly believe, that it has ended.
U and me are too different right now.
Different in all side.
Our dreams are not same like yesterday. Your dream is yours, not mine.
is it really over.
Is it really over. ? ? ?
I wanna deny this but it's real.
May, it can't be like as first time, , ,
it can't be as beautiful as we ever make it.
Gud bye to u ,my trusted friend,
Gud bye to u, my bestfriend.
4 me, u keep being my bestfriend before n after this end.
Thanx so much 4 everything that ever u teach me,
thanx 4 your time that ever u share to me,
thanx 4 everything. .
I love u, my bestfriend,,,,
i'm trully sorry cause i can't give anything, can't reply your giving. . .
::
::
at the last..
i know the change is better for us...
i know .... our meeting and our separating is our story...
story that remember us .......
wish u alway be fine there..
and find some good friend there...
::
I dunno why should i cried because of u so painfully? ? ?
Whereas, i ever told in my heart not to cry 4 u , cause may u never think 'bout me anymore !
I admitted, u were 1 of important person in my life, , ,even till now. . .
U've gone,
without say anything,
as i knew, u've find sum1 new.
BuT, it won't be reason i ever hate u, if u never ignore me. . .
How can't ?
After u find some1 who could understand u, who could listen to u, , who could make u never dissapointed,
who share anything u like, ,
u forget me? ?
Though, event i tell my feeling, i can't find, i can't c your atTentioN 4 me.
I realize,
may i have hurt u much,
may i always make mistakes to u,
so, i trieD to find the wordz to say to u, ,
but it's so limited.
Right now,
u,
u,
u,
never know, how difficult to me to hold back my pain to u.
U never c, the tearS in my eyes everytime i c u.
U won't realize how i miss u, miss d moment we belong 2gether.
Anything what ever happened with us can't i delete ASAP as u can do it ASAP.
Right now, u just think your love, your ambitiön, never me.
I hoped, i wished u'll say to me that i'm your bestfriend.
But never. Never. Never. Till i cry, till i die, u won't say it to me.
Last time, i addmited that i was difficult to suppose any1 as my bestfriend, 'cause bestfriend is not a game,but holy.
BuT, why,
after i openeD my heart, choose u as my bestfriend, u went away ? ?
U make our story is never there.
It's so hard for me to loose u, 'cause loose u same like loose pieces of my heart.
I can hardly believe, that it has ended.
U and me are too different right now.
Different in all side.
Our dreams are not same like yesterday. Your dream is yours, not mine.
is it really over.
Is it really over. ? ? ?
I wanna deny this but it's real.
May, it can't be like as first time, , ,
it can't be as beautiful as we ever make it.
Gud bye to u ,my trusted friend,
Gud bye to u, my bestfriend.
4 me, u keep being my bestfriend before n after this end.
Thanx so much 4 everything that ever u teach me,
thanx 4 your time that ever u share to me,
thanx 4 everything. .
I love u, my bestfriend,,,,
i'm trully sorry cause i can't give anything, can't reply your giving. . .
::
::
at the last..
i know the change is better for us...
i know .... our meeting and our separating is our story...
story that remember us .......
wish u alway be fine there..
and find some good friend there...
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